i almost fell into love
the wall was too tall for me to climb
so i turned around
everyone was watching,
slandering my cowardice
but in my mind,
lack of incentive
i turned around and saw a great light
from beyond another wall
and made the climb
with shear force until my body bled
against the rough concrete
like a starving panther
i cared nothing for
the failure people had just seen in me
i lusted for what we all lust for
without any pretense
i heard screams from behind me tout with passionate ignorance
'why wasn't what lied across the other wall good enough for you?"
i replied:
"i will never know."
sometimes blind emotion is all that can make us realize what has worth
i stumbled blindly looking for worth until i felt it
this is why many of us would walk blindly on the face of a cliff--
because it made us feel alive somehow