energy. honesty to the self.

"come up with something that is you."

the question of self isn't an easy one. it isn't realized even at our last breath. the greatest works of art have always been the complexity hidden within simplicity. many artists believe they can express themselves with true honesty when only they are hiding behind metaphors. it is easy to evade yourself and others this way. you aren't accomplishing anything when you are fooling yourself. you will always be searching for you. you will always be searching for home. the truth of the matter is you have to accept that you will never find these things. if you think you already have, you are complacent and there is no longer any room for you to grow. you are stunted.

i personally am beginning to be careful and more cognizant in how honest I am to myself and not so much others. throughout childhood it is continually reiterated that we be honest. we automatically assume this means honesty to others. we do not think this applies to the self. this is why many people find themselves at twenty-five and a hole in their life. completeness may include a void for all I know. what i know to be true is that the people around me who confide their most private thoughts to me are taking a chance with honesty -- and not just to me -- but to themselves. They may be discussing with me their life however, the dialogue in reality is only with them and themselves.

when i hear these things from others, it has a profound effect on my perceptions and perspective on life. i grow from the grace i receive when people confide in me.

the greater essence behind communication is energy. this is not a new concept. i do think that the concept is losing steam though. from some recent conversations with a close friend of mine, I have been made aware just how much energy flows through our bodies. when we keep things within, it can do harm to our bodies. this energy flow or chi is the life force that is manipulated continually through our interactions with the external environment. when we use words all we are doing is throwing around energy like playing catch with a friend.

grounding is a term that has two synonymous processes. firstly, grounding is a process in which electricity (energy) is connected to the earth, used as an arbitrary zero of potential. secondly, grounding in the psychological sense is to reconnect the mind to physical reality. these two things are exactly the same except for what is used as the zone for zero of potential. it is my belief that honesty is the greatest vehicle towards successful grounding.

this to me proves that humans are conduits for energy. energy is God. energy is the essence of consciousnesses. being untrue to yourself is destroying and maiming this 'energy'. discussing this renders words almost useless. beauty is in simplicity. why must we continually find names or terms for this energy? it cannot ever just exist on its own?