painful existence or a [blissful] nonexistence? a highly metaphysical (ontological) rant.

painful existence or a [blissful] nonexistence?

death is the only concrete certainty in life. it is the only thing that human willpower cannot transcend or overcome.

you may be thinking to yourself, "can will transcend birth?" -- which is another inevitability in life. since birth is the antithesis to death, I believe them to be one in the same. birth begets death.

if we weren't aware of our own mortality just think about where we'd be today. we'd still have prehensile thumbs. without our 'existential spunk' we couldn't have evolved over 1.5 million years to be able to use our new and improved thumbs to channel surf. our self-awareness and consciousness have evolved in a way as to make sure we didn't become lackadaisical and die off. so using death as a motivator for living is probably the best thing that could have ever happened to our species hence our existential spunk.

in relation to the title of this entry, blissful is just an adjective placed in parentheses to fill in a variable that cannot really have any value assigned to it. only the existing can place value in nonexistence. this isn't a reciprocal form of logic. this is why consciousness is so highly valued. to feel pain is a gift, if seen in the eyes of Being. so don't go fuck up your million years of evolution miracle by thinking your life is worthless. you're a living work of art -- and no, not by god damned intelligent design. you and I both know that intelligent design is just the crazy right winged christian's last ditch effort at trying to save their establishment. nothing worse than losing capital on you're # 1 investments -- human souls.

which bring us to the last point. (i've lost anyone who reads this by now anyway. but i'm still happy.) once you come to what you think is a kick ass hypothesis as to why religion and divination were created, you begin to realize how the con's of religious establishment outweigh the pro's. religion is the biggest mass form of a 'defense mechanism' ever! It rationalizes, denies, represses, idealizes, displaces death by means of faith. "you're gonna die anyway, so follow our rules and lifestyle choices because it makes us feel powerful and in control." - which just translates in the religion fundamentalist's hypothalamus as 'fittest'. i recently had the rare opportunity to see a MRI scan of the human brain and the hypothalamus actually did contain the Freudian id, ego, and superego. riiight... and God is found in the cortex.

use your willpower! it might not be able to circumvent death..but hey, you've come to accept that by now anyway, right? i'd like to think good is innate in humans. but what is good anyway? do animals know good? we are, in essence still animals -- trying and working towards being civilized is just a little ongoing project we like to call jurisprudence. it will happen if we will it. have faith in the clock folks. isn't it interesting to notice how the major imperative of most religions is to aggressively try to downplay our existence on this earth as actual animals? what the hell else are we? oh, i forgot about our divine status as humans. divine status is no different than someone holding the tickets to a sold out concert (the afterlife) that you so desperately want to see! but if you're good and follow the rules - then you're gonna be able to go to that concert! this false sense of 'divine status' is the root of some of our global warming issues also. we get so caught up in being human that we forget that we contribute to ecological systems within the earth.

God is just our mind trying to grow a prehensile meaning of ourselves. do we really need that in order to survive? i'm pretty sure nature will do that for us in time. mystery is the playground of the human mind (also dubbed as curiosity in the feline mind) -- let's not get too serious with it.

i better not get hit by lighting today in RE: to this blog. i'm going to try to avoid misfortune. but i'd rather God get mad at me then a human who claims to be an advocate in His name.

in the words of my good friend thomas waits, "what does it matter, a dream of love or a dream of lies, we're all gonna be in the same place when we die. we're all gonna be just dirt in the ground."